Snow White Darkness: October 2010

Alphard ...

The Solitary One
The Lone Star

Star twinkle because they are singing.
When you're
...insecure...
...desolate...
All you have to do is look up, on nights that seem hopeless...

And there they'll be...
Twinkling.
Singing for you.
Cheering you on.
Praising you

Even though I know
that it's just the
atmosphere that creates
the twinkling effect

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

sigh...

Really, why is my chatbox being spam?!?!

Ramdom...

Now that I think bout it...

Why is my blog so emo?
Why? Why? Why? Why?

Why is blog so damn white?
Why? Why? Why? Why?

Why do I have nothing to write?
Why? Why? Why? Why?

Lastly ,why is my hand so damn tired from typing all the 'why's?

Pissed off...>.<

Phew...

Long time no new post , nothing to write...
Term 4 is ending...
School holiday is coming...
CCA camp is coming...
The year is ending...

New year is coming...
School is starting...

Ah...So sian

Why...

WHY?
Why...
...does this always happen?!
Why can't I...
Why must I 'HATE' too?
So if I hate you...
...will that make you like me.

IT'S NO USE.

Just a thinglike this...
...and I'm already...
...CONSUME BY IT.
I'm being swallowed up.

So many fun and happy things have happened to me, but because of something like this...
...if my heart gives up, then what meaning is there in having all these people by my side when everything can be so easily erased?
Even though they're by my side, even though they're here for me, I'd turn everything into nothing.Why do I do this?Why do they stay?
For what purpose?
I hate myself!

I'm trying.
It's no use...
If I get depressed...
I'll never be able to smile again...
I just have to keep trying...
If I try hard enough...
I'm sure someday...
...they'll come to understand me.
I'll keep on trying.
When I go hometoday...
...things might be different.
After all...
If it doesn't happen today...
...then maybe tomorrow...
Things will change.
Maybe they'll turn and look back at me...
...tomorrow...
Maybe they'll smile at me
If it doesn't happen tomorrow, then maybe it'll happen the day after...
Or maybe...
Just maybe...
...the day they understand...